Dude, I'm missing something subtle that puts ME in the uncanny valley emotionally.
If that’s your subjective impression of yourself, I suspect it differs greatly from others’ impressions of you.
You’re kinda weird, but that’s not inherently creepy. The thing about uncanny valley is that you can’t really tell what’s creeping you out, but something is.
You have clearly never met me in person.
And as I said, a lot of what blunts that for you is the fact that I do my very best to simulate every bit of it that I can make through text, and text is a lot more "forgiving" than in-person interaction.
When I get addressed by a stranger when I am not directly planning to engage exactly that person, I find myself completely unable to respond to anything, for instance; on a forum, it's really easy to pick when and how I respond, and whether I respond (except to things which
provoke response). As a result, interjection doesn't seem weird in the medium.
But sometimes I'll just be following a conversation happening in a room when I'm staring out into space, and then just jump right in without even changing my gaze from whatever ceiling tiles I happen to be evaluating the stains of, or the piece of wall that happens to not be in any human's general direction or even moving at all.
I have become slightly more aware of how abnormal that behavior is even since typing out a description of it? But it is what it is.
I'm not sure why that is, either. Humans seem to prefer eye contact with each other when conversing but it just doesn't happen for me; I know that unless I'm really putting in a huge effort, making eye contact with people usually ends up bad, like "I don't know what my eyes were doing but apparently whatever happened means 'its ON'" bad. And that was before I started carrying a very functional stick.
What's worse is the inconsistency I animate with. Most days, most times, I'm just kinda 'cardboard cutout of a person' present. Unless you get me into one of my special interests, you might as well be talking to a ChatGPT with some "basic bitch" prompt. But you also know I can get spicy when someone says something that's just plain "wrong"
I have no major issue against the creepiness of me, of the uncanniness; as dead as my face is when not impassioned by interest, I still feel very deeply, even if by a clearly different fundamental process than how I expect most people feel those things.
It also means that emotional processing wipes me the fuck out, and when that's spent, things get hairy fast.
Simulation, for all it produces similar results (as per the name; though as I said, sometimes the results are better because the reasoning is exposed), it's very inefficient at times, and I can't always maintain it as well as someone whose process is more "FPGA config" and less "processor instructions".