I suspect I know why your agenda is loaded with anti-gay, anti-immigrant items - you are secretly gay and have a crush on your lawn service guy, Gorge. Your agenda is an over the top reaction to your true feelings, an attempt to deny who you are. This is what I would suggest you do to get over your internal conflict and move on to live a happy, fulfilled life instead of seeking validation for your negative emotions online:
Have a relationship with a gay man, preferably an immigrant from south of the border. This will teach you to live a happier life and to rely on your partner for fulfillment without feeling negative emotions.
Spend the summer working with your hands picking fruit, or hanging sheetrock or similar. Preferably, side by side with your latin lover and others from his community. This will teach you self respect, the value of a hard day's work, and will allow you to get to know people who are culturally and socially different from you and empathize with them. Irrational hatred or animosity towards people who are different from you is typically a reflection of one's own shortcomings and this will help you recognize and work through your own issues.
Dress up in drag on the weekends and let loose your feminine side. It worked for George Santos, didn't it?
Good luck with your journey and I hope you can overcome your mental health issues and lead a happier life. Living in hate is no fun and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. You can become a champion for the weak, the misunderstood, and the underserved Instead of going down this pathway to hell that you are talking about.
