Jarhyn
Wizard
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The same place where we knew, long before they were ever outed as having sex with men, that all the ex-gay counselors never stopped shagging dudes.I must have missed it. Where do we discover that Chris is transgender?
Methinks he doth protest too much.
Then, it sounds like your reasons for wanting castration were entirely based on myth, misunderstanding, confusion, and desperation.Ok that sounds good.None of us spend that time "anorgasmic".
In fact, "anorgasmic lifelong pharmaceutical patients" describes all the trans people I knew from before their transitions; you still sound quote "confused". After their transitions, they have practically "glowed". They also had no problems with sex. They all tend to HAVE plenty of sex, but they don't have any problems with it.
I don't think I have self-hate at the moment. Other than hating my belly fat. And wishing I would be more capable of having a job.It absolutely does not sound like you EVER actually got professional help for your gender issues.
It sounds like they were groomed into self-hate.
Well I've never really thought about being a woman. If I did have surgery it would be to get rid of my belly fat. I've never worn female clothing or wanted to.All continuing to listen to this shyster will do is continue to make you more like him until you start to hate that part of yourself and distort in the same way. He is grooming you.
I don't think I continue to hurt over it. Except for belly fat.You have to actually understand why you continue to hurt over it and what you really want and why you want it.
I see psychologists, GPs and psychiatrists fairly regularly. I don't think I have gender issues.Personally, I would recommend finding a therapist to talk with about gender issues because Chris is a cultist, and your issues of depression were almost certainly coming from a similar place as my own: Lifelong indoctrination into a church where any deviation of either interest of vigor in pursuing the "WASP" lifestyle was seen as, well, deviance.
Well my love language is "physical touch" and those other options don't necessarily involve that.I can't begin to describe the amount of depression I felt as a teen and young adult around that whole socio-sexual expectation issue.
Look at your language in your post. You weren't looking for "friends" or "companionship" or "a relationship", or "someone in your life" you were looking for a "girlfriend",
BTW I was planning castration about 20 years ago, in my 20s.a mystic gem or McGuffin someone near the beginning of a quest tells them they must one day find least you be "broken" forever.
It seems like you found something more healthy than what you were looking for, but the fact is that you still very much have all the trappings of someone who still has something "unresolved", an itch under the surface that has survived your relationship and is now looking to try to scratch the itch of your scars to make it go away.
It won't go away Excreo. It will continue "itching". It will continue being like this for you, with some uncomfortable feelings that Chris will do his damnedest to convince you to turn outward, but the person you are still uncomfortable with, if this keeps popping into your head, is you.
I've never wanted to have my penis removed. Maybe I wanted catrastion so that I won't be addicted to porn or something (which was straight porn).If you feel the need to look at trans issues more often than actual trans people, you are the confused, possibly curious, person in that equation.
If education has been ubiquitous 20 years ago, you would have known this, and I would have known it WAS exactly what I wanted.
Either way, this is exacerbated in both respects by a lack of education.
I might also observe that those cultures you mentioned being involved with were also very masturbation-negative.
Also, completely unsure why you're bringing up penile removal. I think you have a very distorted view of how genital modification works. Nothing tends to get "removed"... And most people who say goodbye to their balls keep their penis, as far as I know.