Finally, I think I'm getting through. There's a truth in our discourse that we need to get to. I'm not saying that anything, like believing in fairies, is true since we're not judging reality through the lens of science. But I am saying that God is, to me, as true as, if not even more true than, science. So, bear with me.
I will agree with NHC, and most of you, that, as it stands, the Bible and much of religious doctrines are difficult to accept when we approach them as historical facts and argue over those nonsense. Take for example, the argument between creationists and evolution. I suggest that in neither side is the matter fully resolved. The evidence points towards evolution but not in the same way as the kind of evidence that supports Newton’s Laws or even Relativity. Even in science, we often accept certain laws even if we don't quite understand it and see it as paradoxical. Many scientific hypothesis are tentative, until proven wrong.
We need to open our minds to alternative viewpoints if we are to get to God. We cannot ask for God to be defined in a way that we can understand scientifically. The God of the Bible does not fit into any category. So, what or who is God and how can we find out for ourselves if He's real or not?
It's not going to be easy to explain. If you really want to know, I really want to share my experience and understanding. But we won't get very far if you jump at everything you find challenging.
As I suggested earlier, we need to look at life itself and ask what it means and how can we get closer to understanding it. I may have used this example before but never mind. Eric Clapton is a Christian. His son died in a terrible accident and broken-hearted, he wrote a beautiful song, Tears in Heaven, to address and cope with his loss.
The song presumes the existence of God and Heaven and that presumption enables him not just to accept his son's death but to move on with his own. Notice the tension, he is able to move on and yet mourn the death of his son deeply. He didn't have to forget nor give up on his own life. He could even continue to love his son and look forward to meeting him again. His son's death made it even more urgent that he lives his own life well.
I think we need to look at this carefully. Is God real to Eric Clapton? In a way, God is more real and more important to him than the reality he lives in. God is his answer to life. For many believers, including me, the answer to suffering is God. We don't know why God allows suffering, but we find comfort in believing that God exists and He is a loving God who will solve everything. Not only that, when I started to believe, I saw reality in a different way.
I'll share my own perspective here. The Design Hypothesis that God must exist because our universe, as explained by science, is so well designed has been forwarded elsewhere and a common argument that many Christian scientists use. I agree with this but it might help if I explain it differently. I think that science reveals a part of God's mind, but not all of it. With each new revelation in science, I see evidence of a mind so far ahead of us and yet so much like us that I am blown away. Many scientists are scientists for this very reason, that science is able to penetrate deeply into the universe and the universe it unfolds is both entirely logical and yet mysterious, if not magical. Many scientists, like Carl Sagan, are blown away looking at the night sky. Unfortunately, he could only see the science of the sky but not God, who created it.
If I have to define God, for me, God is Divine Intelligence. He is like us but so far beyond us that just contemplating his existence blows my mind. I see this Intelligence in every part of my life and in the universe. And when I ask myself, what my life is all about, I am inescapably drawn to the conclusion that my life is a gift from God and that he has a plan for me and that my purpose on this earth is to follow this plan. I came to this conclusion from a "scientific" angle. I was struggling with my life, it didn't seem to make sense. Some might call it my mid-life crisis. I talked to counsellors, read self-help books, read up on religion and philosophy, and with each step, I am drawn to the conclusion that God exists. Not just any God but the Christian God, as portrayed in the Bible. More amazingly, this God of the Bible, that is the cause of so many disputes, is as angry about religion as the strongest atheist. I realised that He is indeed God of all, the very kind of God I demanded of Him.
But of course, this is all very subjective and my understanding of God is not the true picture of God. It's a bit like an ant trying to understand Albert Einstein. And using that understanding to explain general relativity. So, how can I share my journey? How can I explain, to myself, what I am experiencing? Who can I talk to? It's very difficult to believe in something and not be able to talk to anyone about it. Talking to Christians can be quite frustrating, as many of you have found out. I'm hoping I can talk to you guys.