So you carefully redefine your good/bad boundaries and continue to do what you want to do, no matter what anyone else might think scripture says.
So, no matter what I say it must be a terrible thing because, what?
I didn't say that.
Clearly, you're going to do whatever it is you want to do, and you'll interpret the Books as necessary to support it.
Good, bad, swearing, plagiarism. Any good bible-follower can find scripture to support whatever they want.
I don't think like you, or there are people who think like me that are politically but fairly in opposition to a few social issues you feel emotionally fixated with,
No, you just think like an online apologist.
or is it that you are afraid God is going to control you,
No. He has to get in line behind Darth Vader. I'm really afraid of Darth Vader.
because I've looked at every other possibility and it's all bullshit.
Sure.
Everything every atheist has ever told me regarding the answer to that question - like as if by rote - was a fucking lie.
Okay.
You want to be the first? You want to be the first to tell the truth?
Why? Are you prepared to hear truth or will you just filter it through your already championed biased beliefs?
Why do atheists pretend not to believe in God?
Ah. Well, that's an answer.
No, we don't pretend not to believe in any of the gods.
We don't believe in any of the gods offered by mankind which appear, to us, to have been crafted as answers to questions spawned by their ignorance and tailored to their societal needs.
I don't believe that the nature of the universe demands a supernatural explanation for its existence.
I believe mankind is more than capable of creating moral codes, so the existence of morality does not demand a supernatural sponsor.
I personally believe in an afterlife, due to very subjective experiences, but i see no sign that there's an overarching supervisor to the process, thus no need for a deity to explain it.
I do not find coincidence, ignorance, hope, really-really-poor math skills or self-serving views of history to be inexplicable unless one accepts the idea of divine oversight.
There are other offered reasons for belief that i've rejected. I can't find the formal list i made about 20 years ago, though. But feel free to offer them, we'll see if they work.