I think I might be the bad girl
who brought up the topic of free will, and using it as an argument against people who think they choose to believe or not believe. I may not be a hardcore determinist, but I do believe that we are all products or as I usually put it, victims or benefactors of our genetic and environmental influences. Get it? I didn't mean for this discussion to become one about free will. I was just trying to use a little reasoning, because to me, the idea that we have total free will over our beliefs and our actions is absurd. I've read enough books on the topic to justify my belief that we don't have absolute free will. Knowing that we don't have free will even made it easier for me not to judge people too harshly because they can't help who they are unless some new strong influences come into their lives to change their behavior. So, you could say reading and understanding what makes us who we are, influenced me in a positive way.
I am unable to believe there is a god or an afterlife. I was raised to be an evangelical Christian and at least until I was about 18, I tried to believe or thought I believed. But the OT Bible god always seemed like such an evil, mentally deranged character, so it was hard to cling to such a belief. The idea that my Catholic friends were doomed for all eternity was also an evil idea. Why not base punishment on character, if a god must punish people. It was spending one semester in a conservative Christian college that was the biggest environmental influence that led me away from religion. It was reading and thinking about other religions that made me an atheist. It was not a choice.
And, Learner, if you're still reading this thread, I don't think you understand, based on comments you made much earlier in this thread, that sisters don't have the exact same DNA inherited from their ancestors. That is why two of my sisters suffered with obesity, which probably came from our grandmother, while I am thin, probably from the genetic influences on my grandfather and mother. My two sisters both had blond hair as children. Mine was auburn until it turned blond with age. My sisters are/were very tall like my father was, while I am short, like my grandfather. Point being, siblings inherit different traits from their ancestors.
Only one sister remained a Christian and to this day, she's not sure which version of Christianity is the right one. My late sister held onto some kind of woo, that was similar to paganism. My late sister was almost like a clone of our late grandmother, when it came to their personalities, especially the way they cut friends and family members out of their lives over trivial things. Obviously, my late sister couldn't help her behavior, when it was so obviously inherited from our grandmother.
I once asked my Christian sister if she thought I was going to hell. She told me she didn't know. The idea of an afterlife is silly to me, but I understand how it gives hope and comfort to many people. I prefer the idea that we are star dust and after we die, and our corpses deteriorate, or are cremated, we will be like star dust again. That makes more sense to me, than the concept that we will somehow be magically living in some kind of afterlife. Now people even believe that their pets will be there with them, since they will cross the so called Rainbow Bridge. Heaven would certainly be hell without dogs and other animals. Whatever floats your boat.
The Christian god was obviously created by humans, just like other gods. He shares all of the human traits, including sometimes being very evil and sometimes being very kind and generous. He just has supernatural powers according to believers in such mythology. The NT god is certainly nicer than the OT god, other than the threats of eternal damnation, the belief in the 2nd coming, the end times etc. if you take that literally and not some type of metaphor. Humans have always been drawn to mythology, so perhaps religion will always be around. I just hope it will be kinder, and less divisive, like Unitarianism, for example.
Conservative Christianity is very sexist, supporting the concept of a patrilineal society. That in itself is evil enough for me, as a woman.